Normalcy at last or something like it

I am having quite a ride this year. Normalcy has been some what achieved for my daughter and myself. It has taken alot of work. I have been laid off since late June of this year and there is slim pickings for what I need.

The wonderful guy I wrote about here on my last post is long gone. He wasn't so wonderful. I have someone new under new terms and him and I enjoy each other and he respects me. I could easily fall for him and be over the moon about him. But, can't do that. Things are different this time around and I have to keep my heart safe this time.

I am doing my AA in Web Design. My daughter is back in regular high school. I have things floating along as best I can, but we are struggling. But God is watching.

I am friends with the guy I will always love. Working on something right now and it just needs settling down. Him and I will always be friends. Two people I would die for, it is this friend and my daughter.

I am healthy. My daughter has a cold, but she is healthy otherwise.

Life is good.

New wonderful man

I have a new wonderful man. I have been dating him for three weeks now and he is pretty great. I could easily see this going somewhere. I hope that it does because I hate dating. I don't like the whole process and it leaves you feeling pretty messed up after a while.

On the job front, I got laid off, like many of you out there. The two wonderful girls that I was a Nanny to, have moved on to Daycare and Preschool, as they are very bright and they, according to their Dad, will do better, around kids their age. I love them and miss them dearly, but that is the nature of a Nanny job.

I hope that you all are doing well and that life is being kind.

I found a new wonderful man - He makes me laugh a lot

I have found this really wonderful guy and we are going steady. I don't think people really say that anymore. We are exclusively dating each other. He makes me feel happy. He makes me laugh a lot too. I hadn't realized just how much I hadn't been laughing till I met him. He is really sweet and kind. Even his son is wonderful.

On the flip side, I lost my job. The girls I cared for as a Nanny are moving on to Daycare/Preschool. So, I am now pursuing employment again.

My soulmate got engaged and now that chapter in my life is over. At least I got to be with him for a little while.

The good news is the new wonderful guy I was just talking about. Who knows? Maybe he could end up being the last guy I will ever need to date.

Ok, must try and sleep. I am really restless tonight. That darn moon is still too full out there.

widowhood is freaking me out

So, it has been almost 3 years now that I have been a widow after being married for nearly 21 years. I am making my way in the world , but it is a daunting task. I woke up in the middle of the night last night and I realized for like the one thousandth time, that I am the only responsible adult in the house and if something happens, it is up to me to keep us safe and keep us going. I hate it when I get like this. Most days I feel that I am strong and powerful. I can do anything and then I feel like today, when I just want to crawl underneath the covers and just stay there until I feel like my usual self again. I hate fear. I despise anxiety. Oh well, tomorrow is another day.

Nate's brother died in Iraq

I am really sad tonight. My good friend Nate lost his brother Christopher in Iraq. He was only 28. He was really brave to go and join the military and fight for his country. Although he was too young to die, he died a hero and he will always be remembered. Nate and his family are in my prayers and I hope that Nate knows that should he need anything, I am only a phone call away.

I got a job!

I got a great new job. I am a Nanny to two sweet little angels and their family is just wonderful. Things are going well. Need to get my love life back on track. Hitting some snags here and there with some ongoing drama with mother-in-law from hell, that just won't go away. But all in all, life is finally headed in the right direction.