2012 and I am Fifty! That can't be right.............

So, here I am again after a long absence.  A few things have changed, I am now going to school and getting my credentials as a Medical Billing Coder.  Still being a Nanny in the meantime to help make ends meet.  My daughter is attending ARTEC and learning about all the behind the scenes stuff that goes into making movies.    ARTEC is a non-profit and for $25 a year it's a great opportunity and better than a 4 year degree in the arts.  She has been offered paid work now, so now when the opportunity arises, she will be able to do that.  So excited for her.  I am so proud of her.  If her Dad would be here, he would be thrilled.  Speaking of my late husband, it is going to be 6 years on August 13th that he was murdered.  I wish I could be the grieving widow that I was a week after he died, but I can't.  All the betrayal that I discovered after he died just killed the love that I felt for him.  I still feel smidgets here and there of what I used to feel, but it is more an emotional memory than a current feeling.  I still wished we had divorced and he was still alive.  That Viv had a father around, but for whatever reason, things happened how they have happened and here we are living and surviving without him.  I have finally settled down with a great man and Viv is crazy about him.  I say settled down in the sense that we have been together almost three years and I have no plans to date anyone else.  He's the one, just waiting on him deciding that I am the one too. I am losing weight and finally going to take off the extra lbs.  Goal weight is 125 and I hope to get there by the end of January 2013.  Something tells me that 2013 is going to be a huge year for us.  Well here's hoping that it will be a great year.